Amazed

To say I’m amazed at your love seems almost unfair
When you have purposely tried to show me you care
Yet my heart has remained stone cold at best
Disregarding you and isolating you with all the rest
Because my lack of trust for the human kind
Has somehow invaded not only my mind
But has meticulously devoured my heart
Causing it to question, quiver and dart
Back inside the titanium box that it resides
Trying to protect it on every side
Peaking out every now and then for someone to show
It the love it longs to feel and know
Still clueless to the fact your there
With outstretched arms saying “I’ve Been Right Here”
All this time, waiting on ME
To realize my purpose, my destiny
Oh God how you amaze me with your orchestrated plan
And your wisdom too much for me to understand
How even in times when I’ve ignored your call
You waited patiently in the midst of it all
Giving me what I’ve needed and longed for most
Love encompassing until I must boast
About the power, love and grace divine
That has simply, literally blown my mind
Not to a state of non-existence
But one of the realization that now in this instance
Beyond all my dreams and flesh, I am existing